2 weeks

Today marks 2 weeks since I started my diet. I am officially down 10 lbs! I am super proud of myself. 10 more lbs to go until my first goal!

Some days are harder than others. When Drew is gone and I stay home all day with the boys....things are soooo much easier. I can really watch what I'm eating at home, but when we go "into town" (Tulsa), things are a little more difficult because we are eating out, but even then with all of the awesome weight loss apps that are out there I am able to see what the nutritional value is for most restaurants. The hardest part so far is eating someone else's cooking....I go over to my in-laws quite a bit for dinner, and Sundays we go to my parents house for lunch. It's not always the healthiest food to eat, but I can't NOT eat. The things that I've tried to do to help is...get VERY small portions of the unhealthy stuff and a little bit bigger portions of something that is a little healthier. I eat the healthy thing first and then veeeeeeery slowly eat everything else. Eating slow helps a great deal because you fill up faster when you eat slow.

This no salt business has also been a little difficult for me. I am the girl that salts anything and everything before I even taste it. I LOVE salt. I tried using the brand "No-Salt", but it was just disgusting. It leaves a horrible chemical-like after taste. I also tried Ms. Dash...it was nasty also. My cousin suggested that I try Celtic Sea Salt, but I haven't had a chance to go into town and grab some yet, so that is my next thing I will try. For now, I'm still salting a little bit, but not near as much as I was before and I am at least tasting it first :) .....baby steps.

My lunches have consisted of Lean Cuisines, Smart Ones, & Healthy Choice frozen meals. Those are great (well, some of them), and I have been searching Pinterest for healthy recipes. I absolutely love to cook, but I always cooked with things like butter, oil, sour cream, heavy whipping cream, & etc, so I have been learning healthier substitutes for these kind of things. (ps...I Can't Believe It's Not Butter Spray is AMAZING). Drew was kinda nervous about my changes in cooking, but so far the recipes I've found look really good, so hopefully he will like the change.

I haven't started exercising yet, but it is in the plans. It's very hard to do when you have 2 babies. I live in a small town that has maybe 2 gyms, one is Curves (if that is even considered a gym) and the other is a small gym where I believe is only weight lifting. I even live out on a dirt road, so taking the boys out on a walk with the stroller is out of the question. I do have a WiiFit and have done a little bit on it, but my next move is to get Zumba for my Wii. That way I can work out here in my own home and not have to worry about finding a babysitter for the boys just to go workout.

All in all things are going pretty good, I'm happy with the 10 lbs I've lost and I'm definitely looking forward to getting the next 10 off and hitting my first goal.

A New Me

I'm really horrible at keeping up with this whole blogging business. It's really hard to find time to write when you have 2 children under 2.

That being said, a lot is going on in my life right now. Grayson is now 4 months old and Cadyn will be 2 in a month. When they say treasure the moments because time goes by fast...they weren't kidding. Grayson is growing so much. He's gained 10 lbs since birth and apparently is super long for his age....where he got the height from...I'm still unsure. He's hitting all of his milestones regardless of being a month early. He's happy, easy going, & full of personality.

Cadyn...on the other hand is hyper, ornery, very loving, & smart as a tack. I know all parents say their children are smart...but really...he is. The boy already knows all of his animals and the sounds they make, colors, shapes, he can recognize the WHOLE alphabet, and can count to 14 and recognize the numbers too. He amazes me every day at all of the new stuff he has learned. He also has a very large vocabulary...even though I'm about the only person that can understand him :)

Ok...onto what this post was originally supposed to be about, but what kind of mother would I be if I didn't talk about my kids first? After I had Cadyn, I swore to myself that I would NOT get pregnant again until I had lost enough weight to be down to AT LEAST my prepregnancy size (which by the way was still WAY TOO BIG). I swore that I would not be one of those women who gave birth, didn't lose the weight, then had another child, and just gets bigger from there. Well....I did just what I said I wouldn't do. I still had 14lbs of baby fat and BAM...I got pregnant again. I did pretty good with the weight gain with Grayson...only put on about 17 lbs (30 with Cadyn), and after I had him the weight just seemed to start falling off. Then it just stopped. Last week I was at prepregnancy weight with Grayson....so here I am on this journey to start actually losing the weight...because obviously sitting around my house playing with my boys and snacking all day wasn't doing the trick. I'm on a strict 800 calorie a day diet. It really hasn't been as hard as I thought it was going to be....I guess because I'm just so motivated to do it. I finally just got so fed up with being fat. Let me give you a few reasons why being fat sucks...1) I HATE seeing people I know from when I used to be skinny. I know in the back of their heads they are judging me for gaining weight. 2) I HATE having to shop in specialty stores...I can't just walk into any store I want to and find a cute outfit. I have to go into plus size stores and even then, I never find anything cute because I just don't feel cute being fat. 3) I want my husband to be proud of me....yes, I know he loves me no matter what I look like, but I want to go out with him and be proud to show me off. 4) I just want to be healthy. 5) I want to be able to do things with my boys....being fat really slows you down and enables you to do A LOT of things.

I'm less than a week into my diet and have already lost 7 lbs. I'm really proud of myself and there is nothing more motivating then stepping on the scale and watching the number decrease. I am going to try to keep up with the blogging just for the sheer purpose of keeping myself accountable and also so I can look back and watch my progress. I'm trying to do things in short term goals....13 more lbs until my first goal is hit! Wish me luck!