Last week I went shopping for something to wear to a wedding. It was still just as frustrating as it always was, that was a kick in the butt. I just wanted to cry. Here I am busting my rear end trying to lose all this weight, trying on clothes should be getting easier, right? I felt pretty defeated and frustrated....but instead of eating away my sorrow (which is what I would have done 2 months ago), it just motivated me more to keep going. I will say though...I HATE the clothes that are in style right now. I understand that I am not a "junior" anymore, but good grief...what is up with all of the NEON?! My eyes hurt after walking into Rue 21 (first mistake). Last time I was able to even shop in a Rue 21 like store...I guess I was still a "junior," but their clothes are AWFUL! (sorry if you shop there...it's just not for me)
The other day while I was at home and decided to bust out some old clothes just to see if they fit. These are clothes that are back from my college days, mainly just t-shirts...no I do not still own any size 2 clothes back from my high school days like some of my friends think I do lol. I'm a pack rat, but I have gotten rid of my high school clothes (except for a couple of t-shirts, that I eventually want to make a t-shirt quilt out of). Much to my surprise...they fit! At least the shirts do...the pants on the other hand...I still have a little bit to go, being that most of my weight is in my abdomen area (the joys of motherhood). I have gone down 2 shirt sizes....and sadly...I'm pretty sure I've gone down in bra size too (sorry if you're a male & reading this)....but really!? Why can't I lose the preggo pooch before the boobs? I don't mind if I lose some of the boobs, but can't they be the last things to go?
I still have a lot of weight to get off...my ultimate goal is to lose another 65 lbs...I will be a STICK if I lose that though...& really...I don't care to be skinny, just healthy and happy (and be able to walk into any store I want to and find clothes that fit). So, I will be happy with another 40...but I'm not gonna stop from there. My next big goal is another 20...after that I will reward myself again :) Right now, I've got to think of what I am going to reward myself with this time! I'm thinking a massage may be in the works for this next week. I deserve it!